I don’t get much time to update my blog anymore as life is pretty hectic… but in a good way! This time last year I was… well a mess! I was struggling at university, hating living away from home, lonely, anxious, recovering from a toxic relationship and I just thought what was the point anymore?
So roll forward 12 months, I have a job that I love, I have travelled and begun living again and the biggest change ever… I met the absolute light of my life 💕
This week was our 6 month anniversary and so here I am sharing the love.
So if anyone is feeling like I did last year I say there is always a light you just have to dig deep and find it. If your life is going wrong only you can change it! It’s hard, very hard but YOU can do this!
This year has gone by so quick , I started it in a very different place than I am right now. I haven’t blogged for quite a while because life has been really busy but I just wanted to say “hey I’m alive and I’m good!”
Work is good, very stressful at times and busy but I’m still enjoying it. Family life is hectic my brother is still at home with us and waiting to move in to his own home with supported living, his epilepsy is not good which is a big worry but as a family we pull together to support him as best we can because that’s what we do.
As you know a special person came in to my life a couple of months ago and he is still in it and I just wanted to say he is my everything 💕
I never thought I would find this level of happiness, it kind of consumes my whole body the amount of love that I have for him. He is what I have been waiting for all my life.
When people say you just know when you are truly in love you think naa how can this be? But I’ll tell you now you just do .
We don’t even have to talk to know what the other is thinking, we talk about the future, we talk about “our” future because our future is together. We have so many things to look forward to over the next couple of months and I’m so excited to be spending special moments with “the love of my life”
Anyone who thinks their life can’t change well I can tell you good things do happen when you start to believe again, the light has definitely come in to my life and I am in a good headspace. ❤️
I’ve not been on here for a while, life sometimes gets hectic and time passes too quickly. But I wanted to reflect on the little things that make a person smile.
Showing that you care costs nothing, this week a family brought a cake in work for me to say thank you for supporting them. It might not seem a lot but to me it meant that they appreciated my efforts. We all like to be appreciated and not taken for granted.
I do a lot for others and I like seeing people smile, it’s not always about giving gifts or grand gestures it’s about just showing you care. May be it’s just my way and it’s wrong? life sometimes tells me I should be more selfish but that’s not me and I refuse to change because it’s not a crime to show you care. I keep hoping that others will treat me how I treat them but at the end of the day if they can’t see it for themselves then that says more about them than me.
Have a good bank holiday everyone and remember to treat those around you as you would like to be treated yourself.
I really want to express my love for this person and how lucky I feel to have found him.
I love just looking at him when he’s not paying attention because that’s when he is the most beautiful in my eyes… because he’s not trying, it’s natural and he is just being himself and to me that’s better than any picture of him that could ever be taken.
I just love looking at these pictures, I can see that I am finally happy and I feel very happy and lucky every single day. I was in a very dark place a while back and I never thought I’d see the light again but then this perfect person came in to my life and changed it more than he will ever know.
If you are reading this my lovely gorgeous boyfriend, I just want to say thank you for making me be the happiest I’ve ever been and for making me feel whole , you treat me in the way I should be treated, not as a possession or something that can be disregarded without thought you treat me as I should be and I feel special beyond words. Unfortunately, I am here for the long run so you better get used to me being annoying 😂
My mum asked me to think of 5 things I like about my boyfriend and when I was writing them I was literally smiling my head off .. this is how he makes he feel . I honestly never thought someone like him would come in to my life. I am Lucky beyond words ❤️
I am going away for a week so it’ll be hard not seeing him but all I can say is that I have so many happy memories in my mind that will keep me going ❤️
I just wanted to post this lovely picture that my boyfriend posted about me. Honestly this made my day, no prompting, just him putting it out to the world what he genuinely feels about me. Words can not say how happy this man makes me every single day. I am so lucky to have found him 💕
Knowing that you’re going to wake up in the morning next to someone that lights up your whole world, just staring at them when they are still asleep because you can’t believe that he is your version of perfection and he’s in here in your life right now❤️
That simple text to show he cares 💜
That reassuring hand in your hand as you walk 🧡
Being able to talk together about random shit and knowing he won’t judge you, but that he’ll laugh along with your weirdness 💚
When he makes you your favourite meal and smiles when you eat 💛
When he’s proud to show off you to his friends and makes an effort to make you feel like you’re his princess 💓
I am so lucky to have found you.. you turned my darkness in to light and you helped me to believe that special people enter your life at the right time for the right reasons and that good memories can be made and shared again 💞
Thank you for coming in to my life and making me beyond happy 💘
I didn’t know whether to write this next post but seeing a picture this morning made me realise that by putting things down here it is my way of setting myself free… this picture says it really because for so long I was treading on egg shells every day afraid to confront situations or people, so I kept quiet and every time it chipped further in to my head and my mental health .
For quite a while after my breakdown I couldn’t go to places in case I saw certain people from my past. I was massively afraid of any kind of confrontation. That feeling in the bottom of your stomach of being so afraid that you feel sick, your head spins with terror and you feel out of control is just the worst.
Then slowly I learned ways to cope… because if I didn’t that whole experience would have defined me forever, I would have been a prisoner of my own mind.
Well this week I saw my past!
I’m not going in to detail but all I can say is this experience finally laid the ghost of my past to bed. I saw that person who once rocked my whole world. I didn’t panic, I didn’t go in to melt down I just looked in to his face and saw nothing! Do I think he still has the potential to cause me trouble … yes … because his version of the truth will never be mine but that’s for him to live with not me.
I am just living each day as it comes now, dealing with situations and not running away from them, just being myself and most importantly being happy.
There is a reason for my happiness… someone walked in to my life and made me feel alive again, they made me see that there “are” good honest people in this world. He wants to cherish my whole body and mind, he treats me the right way .. like his equal 💕
I hope he will be in my life a long time but who knows.. I’m just taking life one day at a time and most importantly I’m believing in myself because I know I can do this!