Love the way he looks at me.

I really want to express my love for this person and how lucky I feel to have found him.

I love just looking at him when he’s not paying attention because that’s when he is the most beautiful in my eyes… because he’s not trying, it’s natural and he is just being himself and to me that’s better than any picture of him that could ever be taken.

I just love looking at these pictures, I can see that I am finally happy and I feel very happy and lucky every single day. I was in a very dark place a while back and I never thought I’d see the light again but then this perfect person came in to my life and changed it more than he will ever know.

If you are reading this my lovely gorgeous boyfriend, I just want to say thank you for making me be the happiest I’ve ever been and for making me feel whole , you treat me in the way I should be treated, not as a possession or something that can be disregarded without thought you treat me as I should be and I feel special beyond words. Unfortunately, I am here for the long run so you better get used to me being annoying 😂

Em xo

Little things matter

I am going away for a week so it’ll be hard not seeing him but all I can say is that I have so many happy memories in my mind that will keep me going ❤️

I just wanted to post this lovely picture that my boyfriend posted about me. Honestly this made my day, no prompting, just him putting it out to the world what he genuinely feels about me. Words can not say how happy this man makes me every single day. I am so lucky to have found him 💕

~ Open your heart to new possibilities ~

Em xo

Happiness is the little things

Happiness is enjoying the little things in life… 

Knowing that you’re going to wake up in the morning next to someone that lights up your whole world, just staring at them when they are still asleep because you can’t believe that he is your version of perfection and he’s in here in your life right now❤️

That simple text to show he cares 💜

That reassuring hand in your hand as you walk 🧡

Being able to talk together about random shit and knowing he won’t judge you, but that he’ll laugh along with your weirdness 💚

When he makes you your favourite meal and smiles when you eat 💛

When he’s proud to show off you to his friends and makes an effort to make you feel like you’re his princess 💓

I am so lucky to have found you.. you turned my darkness in to light and you helped me to believe that special people enter your life at the right time for the right reasons and that good memories can be made and shared again 💞

Thank you for coming in to my life and making me beyond happy 💘

~turn the corner and make that change~ 

Em xo 

Freedom

I didn’t know whether to write this next post but seeing a picture this morning made me realise that by putting things down here it is my way of setting myself free… this picture says it really because for so long I was treading on egg shells every day afraid to confront situations or people, so I kept quiet and every time it chipped further in to my head and my mental health . 

For quite a while after my breakdown I couldn’t go to places in case I saw certain people from my past. I was massively afraid of any kind of confrontation. That feeling in the bottom of your stomach of being so afraid that you feel sick, your head spins with terror and you feel out of control is just the worst. 

Then slowly I learned ways to cope… because if I didn’t that whole experience would have defined me forever, I would have been a prisoner of my own mind. 

Well this week I saw my past! 

I’m not going in to detail but all I can say is this experience finally laid the ghost of my past to bed. I saw that person who once rocked my whole world. I didn’t panic, I didn’t go in to melt down I just looked in to his face and saw nothing! Do I think he still has the potential to cause me trouble … yes … because his version of the truth will never be mine but that’s for him to live with not me.

I am just living each day as it comes now, dealing with situations and not running away from them, just being myself and most importantly being happy. 

There is a reason for my happiness… someone walked in to my life and made me feel alive again, they made me see that there “are” good honest people in this world.  He wants to cherish my whole body and mind, he treats me the right way .. like his equal 💕 

I hope he will be in my life a long time but who knows.. I’m just taking life one day at a time and most importantly I’m believing in myself because I know I can do this! 

~ love the life you live~ 

Em xo